“Search me O God and know my heart.” Psalm 139: 23,24
As much as yesterday I mused about the importance of gathering together for church. This morning I was “balanced” by God as I saw the importance also of spending personal quiet time with Him. Today I get “down and dirty” with God as I focus on myself and what I need most from Him. Four things I was reminded of again this morning that help prioritize my prayers.
1. “Search me O God and know my heart;
2. Test me and know my anxious thoughts.
3. See if there is anything offensive in me,
4. Lead me in the way everlasting.”
That’s the whole verse; that’s the whole prayer. “God, search me, test me, check me out and then lead me.” It gets very personal. I want Him to search deep inside me and not just my camouflaging surface of good works. I need Him to look at the very “heart” of the issue and help me understand that the seat of my emotions is the center of my affections. If He doesn’t have that in my life He really doesn’t have my life.
I need Him to test me so He can show me, by what creates anxiety in my life, what I still have not committed to him. A couple days ago, in Psalm 119, I referenced the fact that those who love God’s word and its direction in their lives will have peace (the opposite of anxiety.) So, I give God permission to “test me” so I can see what causes anxiety (the lack of peace in response to the test) so I can discover more about what still needs to be committed to Him in my life. Job said, “Even if He slays me I’ll still trust Him.” Job was tested and found to be without anxiety! I think I still have some things to learn!
I need Him to see what there is in my life that is offensive to Him and thereby also probably offensive to His other believers, to say nothing of how confusing my “offensiveness” must be to those who are trying to find or even believe in God. So God, what is it about my life that clouds or distorts the picture of You that You want others to see through me?
And I need Him to lead me in the way everlasting. I have to decide if I trust Him enough, learned through the testing that reveals my anxiety, to allow Him to lead me where HE wants me to go. And where HE wants me to go is to heaven, to live with Him forever. Anything shy of that is a distraction.
So, go ahead God, search deep within me, do what it takes for me to see clearly the parts of my life that I might be holding back from You. Remove the distractors in my life so others see You clearly. I give you permission to prioritize my life around that which lasts forever. Amen.
See? I told you it was personal!! I hope it gives you some renewed direction for prayer as it did for me.
Have a great day in honest personal private time with God,
Quote for the day: “GOD has no phone, but I still talk to him … GOD Has no Facebook, but he’s still my friend … GOD has no Twitter, but I still follow him.”
PS Are you ready to go hungry so others around the world don’t have to? Are you ready to follow in the steps of Jesus and feed YOUR 5000? Starting this Friday and Saturday, March 1 and 2, Union College is doing their very own 30 Hour Famine through World Vision. That means we are FASTING from 12:00 Noon on Friday, through 6:00 PM Saturday evening! The goal is simple: Raise $1000 on Sabbath afternoon for hungry children in Kenya. We will be preparing for the Sabbath afternoon outreach on Friday evening before vespers. We are meeting in the Atrium of the Don Love Building at 5:30 on Friday to decorate white t-shirts and prep for outreach on Sabbath. (Juice will be served as well since we will be fasting from food)
PPS 9 O’Clock @ 9pm in Rees Hall Chapel. 30 minutes of singing and praising God. All are welcome.
PPPS Come with us to the People’s City Mission this Friday to serve supper! We meet at 3:45 and get back before vespers. Sign up in Campus Ministries if you’re interested!
PPPPS SOS- Something on Sabbath this week we are going to help a lady move from her one room apartment so she can be safe from some bad choices in her life. Many hands will make this a quick project so contact Ray Daugherty if you want to help. firstname.lastname@example.org (517) 936-7617.